My heart is filled with pain

My heart is filled with pain
Now there is no one to whom i can whisper all my sorrows
Day by day these feelings became bigger and heavier
I am afraid of being trapped in this darkness
I am afraid of myself
I am lost
I am afraid to lose my smile and joy forever
My chest is opressed by this pain 24/24
Breathless, things seem so colorless
Lost in the nothingless
In moments i feel like i am broken into million pieces
In moments i feel like i am frozen
I am so meaningless